Hey Bitches! ♥ I am fourteen, almost 15. If you are here, then you know about my ED. For my CW check current entry. If it says I am above 82 lbs, fucking shoot me. I am 4'11, brunette with highlightes, and a mystic tan. I <3 Juicy, Dior, Louis Vuitton, Chanel, and fricken Dooney and Bourke. Leave me love, bitches, and I promise you'll get some in return. ♥
For tips, and food finds, as well as support for recovering, stubborn, confused, and just plain ol' ana's and mia's, click the xxx_anathinspiration_xxx at the top of my xanga!
♥ Always.
G.
♥ CELEBRITY RUMOUR!!! ♥ Hilary Duff is looking thin lately. The one-time Mcdonalds Happy Meal spokesgirl looks like she has been cutting back on not just junk food. Though she claims she is eating right and exercising, we heard that with Lindsay, Nicole, and even MK before she entired re-hab.
iCONS
♥Todays intake & Current Weight♥
Getting out of weigh in by sleeping over at friends. Got back from AZ with a 2 lb gain, not bad for being with grandparents and having to eat. CW is 80.4. Have to go to group tomorrow, time to invest in some heavy fishing weights for pockets.♥QUOTE OF THE DAY♥ ♥ ♥ They always say they're concerned about me, about my health, when all they want to do is control me. They want to pin me down and force-feed me with lies, with what they call
love.Like prisoners everywhere, all I have left is the power to refuse.
Name:Ana Country:United States State:California Metro:Santa Cruz Gender:Female
Interests:dieting. Dieting. Dieting. Loosing weight. Counting calories, cooking and food.
shopping. Couture J'adore. Juicy, Dior, handbags, lip gloss, Victorias Secret, the color pink, the show Friends, Nicole Richie, Mary-Kate, Lindsay Lohan, Louis Vuitton, Chanel, The OC, BITCHES! Expertise:anything I set my mind too &hearts Occupation:Student
Now I remember why I loved xanga so much. Reading the comments I got made me feel like I could do it--and reading all of your entries was thinspiration to me.
The only problem for me is, if I loose any more weight, I could possibly pass out. At 5'0, I am 81 pounds. That's 15.8 BMI, which is low. I don't have my period; either.
So, I am in a rut. I cant gain, and I cant loose, so the struggle is not really a struggle. It's hard to do anything, and I really hate myself.
I feel awful. It's like mia has completely taken me over. Everyday for the past 2 weeks I have come home and binged and purged at least once. It's awful.
My current weight is 81.4. I am okay with it. I go with spurts of "I want to be healthy" and "fuck, I'm fat."
However, it feels really good to be back with you guys. I missed you so much. I am crying as I write this, and I don't know why. I wish some of you could talk to me one on one--I wish some of you were here when I was binging on Rice Krispie cerial this afternoon, or yesterday when I was binging on Wheat Thins, or the day before when I was binging on cake and a galleon of ice cream.
We got body fat tested. I was the lowest in the class...13%.
my dad and I have gotten worse. words can't explain how much I hate him sometimes.
my confidence has been getting higher since I guys have been hitting on me. I feel pretty when that happens, and those are usually when I want to get healthy. Other times, like when Iam at home alone, I don't want to. I just feel so confused.
I have to go--I was on VAYCAY last week and could hardly post my xxx_anathinspiration_xxx post--I promise I'll comment tomorrow AND UPDATE! I love being back.
<3 Gillian. Thank you for your continued support. It means more than you will ever know.
I'm okay. I am almost 84, and I will start by UPDATING every WEDNESDAY from now on. I missed you guys more than you will ever know, and I am glad to be back :)
